人家说,女儿是爸爸上辈子的情人.
这辈子,延续上辈子的情谊.
今天,必须结束了.
因为,你的这一辈子结束了.
虽然你离开了,但是你还活着.活在这里,最深的地方.
在你最后的那一刻或许无助或许痛苦.可是我知道脱离肉身的你已经解脱了.
从人世间的纷纷扰扰解脱了.虽然禁不住还是会流下不舍的眼泪.
可是,我知道你是在一个更好的阶段了...................
不伤心,告诉自己不伤心.因为这里的一切,你若看在眼里的话,你会说:"不要想多多啦!"
偶尔听你说:"不就是这样咯~!"会隐约感觉到,豁达之中好像隐藏了一些害怕.
不要怕,我们这辈子该走的路走完了;该受的受完了;勇往直前吧!
我们会好好的.你的笑,你的逗趣,你的爱...我们留着了.
你的不堪或黑暗面不会抹杀我们对你的爱.
最后,很想很想告诉你,你不是一个坏爸爸!你不是一个包袱!不是一个没有用的人....
你是一个好爸爸!你给我们猜纸币最后一个号码游戏, 长途旅程时猜车牌的游戏等等温馨时刻历历在目...你还记得吗?
那个晚上,你握着我颤抖的小手教我克服害怕玩夜旅行的时光,你都还记得吗?
这一切一切只是不舍的情绪作怪~泪,又禁不住了...可是,是笑着流的了.是快乐的回忆...谢谢你.
不需要后悔这辈子做过的事,虽然,"赌"残害了你的一生.可是每个人生命里要克服的习性反应,人生功课/瘾头等其实绝对没有多少人可以做得很好.大家面对同样的问题,受同样的人生苦....
只是大家都还未看到这一点,而只会在别人身上找问题.
爸,我们知道你爱我们.我们也爱你.好好的继续你的旅程吧!
我们也会继续我们的旅程.
要放心啊!不要想太多啦!
我还是你那个长气的女儿,软硬兼施最后还是拿你没办法的女儿.
你选了这条路,今天走到这里,就不要再害怕了.
没有我们,你也继续走下去吧!
走好~不要牵挂哦!
我爱你,我生命中最重要的男人!
There are some believes saying, daughter is father's lover in his previous life.
The love story continue from last life to this life.
But today, our story have to be ended.
Because, your life was ended.
Although you have left us, but you still alive.
You still living here....in the deepest part inside my heart.
Maybe you were suffering or feeling helpless at your last few moment.
But I know, you are release from your body, release from all the chaos of this world.
Tear of difficult to give up still out of control.
But I believe, you are in another better stage now........
I told myself not to feel sad because I know if you are here, you would not hope to see this and you will say:" Don't think too much lar~"
Sometime you like to say:"Just like that lor~" It sounds easy going but I feel it was with a hidden fear behind.
Don't be afraid, my dearest daddy! The path for you in this life coming to the end. The karma that you have to take it for this life also coming to the end. All finished!
Move forward with full of confidence!
We will be fine...Your smile, your joker side, your love, we keep it.
You dark side will not wipe away our love to you.
Lastly, really really hope to tell you.
YOU AREN'T A BAD FATHER!
YOU AREN'T A BURDEN FOR US!
YOU AREN'T A USELESS GUY!
You are my BEST DADDY!!!
Remember the moment we spent on all those little tiny games? Guessing numbers of notes, betting on the car plate number of next car coming from the opposite road etc...all those games warming my heart now with the moment you give us your love.
Especially.....the night, only you & me, you holding my little tiny shaking hand, help me to overcome the fear of firecrackers.
All these memories are still fresh in front of me. Do you still remember it?
The feeling of attachment still so strong and make my tears drop again. But it is tears with smile, a happy cry with sweet memory....thank you, papa!
Don't be regret in what you have done in this life, although gambling issue poisoning your whole life. But everybody have their own addiction/old sankara to be overcome in each of us. Not many people able to handle them in a better way.
Everybody suffering from same problem of different kind of addictions. But not many people see that. They will only see the problem are coming from others.
Papa, we know you love us. We love you too...Continue your journey with a smile, like we will continue our life journey with a smile too.
Don't worry about us, don't think too much lar~
I know I am still your LONG GAS Mei Mei & the daughter who always trying all the ways(strict way & soft way) to you but finally still failed.
Well, you choose this way, and today you are here. Don't be afraid & just continue.
Stay courage in your new journey! Don't worry about everything here!
LOVE YOU~~~~ MY MOST IMPORTANT MAN IN MY LIFE!
